The day I chose to come back
I’ve been sensitive to the unseen world since I was little. I knew how to bend and fold and contort to harmonise the people around me, softening the loud and the aggressive. But in doing that, I took on their baggage and carried it, until one day I woke up and couldn’t move, walk or talk. My husband found me with a tear running down my cheek.
What followed was a 12-year journey through doctors and specialists. I’d lost the function of my immune and adrenal systems, burnt out from a lifetime of working so hard. I got better. Then I had influenza A, and with it, the pericardium (the sac that sits around my heart) filled with so much fluid that it crushed my heart. With my husband and my almost-four-year-old daughter watching from the end of my hospital bed, I died.
I left my body, moved through a tunnel of light to what I now call the origin of divine creation (pure, loving energy) and heard a voice:
“You can either stay here with me or you can go back there and do what I sent you there to do.”
I weighed it up, and I chose to come back: to my husband, my little girl, and the work I was sent here to do. On the way back through, I passed through every layer of the field of creation: an ombre rainbow of light, each shade its own frequency, each with its own environments, beings and language.
Days later, driving home over the bridge I’d crossed since childhood, I cried looking at the sunlight on the water.
“Everything just looks and feels different now. I don’t know who I am.”
Me, on the bridgeI felt scared, and yet so safe. Since then I’ve gone all in, living without pretending I’m like everyone else, and choosing to be different in a way that invites you to explore who you’re here to be.
What I saw on my way back through those layers became the Energetic Architecture Method™, the framework at the heart of all my work✨
